MY WORDS; MY LIFE

4 weeks in army already.
it wasnt very easy, neither was it very hard.
still can tahan nonetheless.

any1 still reads this blog? i wonder.
have not been updating alot it seems.
yes i am botak haha.
kinda comfy tho.

i was ask to have attend C at home cause i had a little fever.
Damn i had to missed IPPT categorization which was the day i book out.
i could have see if i have improved in my 2.4km and mayb be the few who passed or even get silver among all the PTP people.
But well, my Platoon Commander insist that health is more important so yeah.. i can still take IPPT another day..
I will definitely do better the next time ROARR!!!

i have to say.. army wasnt as i expected.
our sergeants, platoon sergeants and officers are actually very nice.
UNLESS we didnt listen to instruction and anyhow do things.
and my bunk mates were all very nice too, that was a very big relief.

Monday when i book in, it will be the start of BMT.
i wonder what new things i will learn haha..

i miss my girl when i was inside.
i miss my family when i was inside.
i miss my relatives when i was inside.
i miss all my friends when i was inside.

but now i feel like it is my 2nd home already.
even thought the punishment can b harsh..
scoldings were given because of little things..
but i do treasure the times there with my bunk mates where we have to wake each other up every morning..
singing army songs in the bathroom loudly till other platoons complain. haha..
and most of all doing all the trainings with each other..
and i believe more will come..
so i hope my 2 years of army life will be a good one..

FROM BASICS TO EXCEL!!!!

die kana brainwash liao zzzz

its the last 3 days already..
excited or not i dunno..
all i know is its going to be 2 years of army life..
2 freaking years.. i am going to chiong haha..
hopefully do something good and get reasonable pay..

baby will be fine i hope..
nobody to follow her to work..
nobody to sent her home..
nobody to let her nag ..
nobody to let her hug..
will you be fine? i will be out in 2 weeks.. just wait ok
try to find things to do and keep urself busy for this 2 weeks..
i promise to msg u everynight =)

SO DO KEEP YOUR HANDPHONE BESIDE YOU!!!..

arghh i am having fever and stomachache today..
super duper not feeling well..
and i still follow baby to work..

anyway.. counting down 3 more days..
hope i will be fine ok.. PRAY FOR ME!!!

i sld have find a job earlier.. now abit too late le..
and i am jobless..

if only i have money..
i can spend nicer times with baby..
i can spend it on nicer items on conquer online..
i can eat better and nicer food..
i can do so so so so so many things..

now everything i do i have to calculate first..

but well i have to wait till army le ba =/

had a great day at WCP with baby today.. hvnt had such a nice and quiet time where we can talk and talk none stop =).. love it..
i am going army.. i hope u wnt miss me too much =))..
you know i love you and i know you love me..

have been playing conquer online for half a year already..
i am currenly a 2nd reborn =D

This is her with her guard =))

ciao all ^^

maybe it was me after all..
somewhere somehow i did something that wasnt satisfactory enough..
so what is satisfactory enough?
i noe nothing much..
and i am suppose to change accordingly? to what i ask myself..
i dunno..

maybe its true.. i take things too lightly..
maybe its true.. i am incapable of alot of things..
or maybe just 1 simple truth.. i m just not good enough?

i hope baby dun think the same way about me as i assume they are thinking..
cross fingers with me will ya..

army is ahead of me..
we'll get pass it smoothly together right?
=)

its the last paper.
n i did okok i feel.
but i just feel weird.
sld i be happy or sad.
i have the meaningless feeling inside of me that i cant explain.
well its over n i m done with poly =)).
hope i wnt get retain tho? haha

well had a nice hand out with andy this afternoon.
enjoyed and talked abit.
it seems hes kinda in a state that i will not understand.
but nonetheless hope he gets better soon =) .

it seems people around me r having problems..
breakups,
pregnancies,
depressions? lol
n i can be counted as the lucky 1 to have only money problems..

ever since i started year 3 sem 2.. things just got so rush.
i have to cut down on work so as to do projects.
trying to learn driving before i go army.
projects every week or alternate.
not enough time for friends n family members.
heck i don't even have time for my gf.
but i guess its all over..
so how m i going to spend my time?
dunno haha..
i want to rest but yet i need the money if i want to go out..
so i guess i have to work soon yeah..
any 1 wanna intro work for me? haha

anyway thru this half a year of hectic life.
i was able to realize people that care for me..
u all noe who u all r.. i dun haf to say.. =))
thanks for all the "jia yous", "goodluck", "dun worry u gt me to talk to".
i appreciate it =))
mayb its time i repay back..

overall i m still glad that things turn out the way it sld b..
mayb its making a decision for me..

yeah just a short post..
i mma go do some clearing up =))

ciao all.. take care all..

after a bit of thinking.. it still boils down to 1 thing..
"contradiction at its best"
haha the irony..

7 hrs to my last exam in poly....
well gonna take a nap n carry on study later n hope i can at least gt a passable grade haha..
this sem have been kinda projects n projects..
been quite a hectic semester..

tmr will b the last day in school already..
other than graduation that is..
i dunno when..

i will find time to blog about my feelings from the day i got into poly till the day i left poly .. =)
till then ciao all..