MY WORDS; MY LIFE

been kept in my heart for sometime.
hvnt really said it out..
each time we quarrel about the same thing..
each time i fail to get this tru..
so i gues blogging it out will be fine..
at least i can say my piece without offending..
n i assume no1 will read my blog anymore so i dun care anymore..

i hate him..
yes he is ur friend but i hate him..
so wad if its the past so wad..
what haf he said about you what haf he did to u..
something i will never FREAKIN FORGET..
u cry to me because of him last tym..
you feel sad while in my present for his words..
i was the 1 who hug u while he was the 1 who insult u..
n yet u can tell me hes still a friend..

and no i aint restricting u..
any human will do the same..
even you..

and each time i fail to tell u this reason each time i keep it deeper inside my heart..
and when there comes a time we quarrel again over the same thing n i once again fail to get tru
i cry.. yes i freakin cry..
a guy cry how fucking pathetic..

sometimes i wish i wld juz forget everything bt i cant..
wad does he deserve to even still b a friend..
he aint fucking deserve to be one..

NOT AT ALL..
but my words wnt help..

i nv wished to quarrel over this stupid person..
the hatred in me will always be there..

but why...
am i thinking too much..?
i am human..
i haf emotions n feelings too..

why when obviously i m the 1 pouring out my trouble
but aint getting the concerns..

i'm sry i ask u nt to contact him..
but i'm feeling for myself for taking back my words again ltr..
that irritation and fedup look u haf for my stupidness..
and u seems like u wld cry or juz scream anytime i state a point..
n i soft hearten..

i wldnt want that..
each time i let down my pride to satisfy u in this situation
each time i dun get myself satisfy..
n it juz curve deeper n deeper into my heart..
n the nites that i cry the nites that my tears follow me to my dream land..
it actually felt nice tho.. letting all my emotions out..

but i dun wana cry..
i wanna smile..

will you be having anger while u read this?
or will u have that sympathetic feeling for me while u read this?
i dunno..

i really dunno already..

i hate him.. i hate them.. i fucking hate them all...
all of them..